Saturday, 30 April 2011

Fever....? What say you?

I've been feeling under the weather for the past few days which lead to me having high fever. Typical climate issue with mother nature, for these whole week, we felt the heat and cold sensation, not the mention the daylight and rainy times were totally out of porportion, most of the people around were falling sick and ill. I find everything was out of balance, not to mention I myself were out of balance.

I have been on fever for the past 3 days, and last 2 nights were the worst of all days. I was totally flatted out and my world is spinning around(literally). Yesterday was a bit better, but I still have those dizziness feeling. When the whole team was having break, I was by myself at the floor, thought it would be safe for me to walk around, to keep my blood circulating...Little did I notice, my legs starts to wobble and I had to grab hold of the nearest workstation just to keep myself up. It was no joke when I find myself in that stage, feeling about to pass out.

Acting cool and clueless, sat myself down back at my place as I tried to focus to the monitor infront of me. 'Wow' i told myself, 'that was a close one. I wondered what would actually happened if I actually passed out on the floor?' That would be a total embarrassment. Huhu (^_^)

Anyway, I can't deny that these past few days the weather was not that kind, it has been very cold and rainy. I used to tell myself that my health is like the cats', when ever rainy or cold seasons, it will find a cosy spot, all curled up and hibernate. If the cats stay awake to be in the wet environment, it will totally get sick.

Now, I find myself being well, being active but I can never know for sure am I well enough, still having those shivers, still feeling cold, coughing, body aching and cramps, sore throat, and cold feet(literally). What am I to do because I do fear if I were to have dengue again....*sigh*

Thursday, 28 April 2011

"You'll say the whole truth and nothing but the truth..."(edited Thursday, April 28, 2011 at 01:30am)

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. Last beverage: Oligo
2. Last phone call: Jihan
3. Last text message: "Makan kat rumah....(^_^)"
4. Last song you listened to: "You are the only exception" by Glee
5. Last time you cried: last month(over some task)
6. Dated someone twice: Yup
7. Been cheated on: Yup, by my Ex...definitely my bloody Ex...
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes!!!
9. Lost someone special: Triple in life
10. Been depressed: A few times
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope...never...

12. Soft Pink
13. Black
14. white

15. Made a new friend: Quite a ...lot..
16. Fallen out of love: yeah
17. Laughed until you cried: A lot of times
18. Met someone who changed you: most definitely...yes...!!!
19. Found out who your true friends were: yeah...
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Do you think i give a damn...?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 13 of them
23. How many kids do you want?: A Pair
24. Do you have any pets: Yes...cats... All 9 of them
R.I.P...Dearest Valentino...(still one of my favorites)

25. Do you want to change your name: Nope... this is my utmost unique name
26. What did you do for your last birthday: An agent baked me a cheese cake(delicious, man)
27. What time did you wake up today: 7.45am
28. What were you doing at midnight: still on FB....
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Being so "patient" with darn a lot of people
30. Last time you saw your Mother: always... we're under the same roof
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish to turn back time to undo all the wrongs that had been done
32. What are you listening to right now : nothing, except fo the sound of the fan
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yup... to one of my cats..hehehe
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Tweedle dum&dee, 2 turtle doves and the insanely(drive me up the wall)... the......hmmm*zipped
35. Most visited webpage: FACEBOoK & Blogspot
36. Whats your real name: should I be mentioning it here?
37. Nicknames:Noryn
38. Relationship Status: Single and ready to mingle
39. Zodiac sign: Sagitarrius
40. Male or female?: FEMALE
41. Primary school: SKSTB
42. Secondary school: SSU, KL & SMKPJI
43. High school/college/university?: KLIUC
44. Hair color: Burgandy
45.. Long or short: long
46. Height: 163
47. Do you have a crush on someone? : Used to, still am*zipped*
48: What do you like about yourself?: just being spontanous when it comes to personal things
49. Piercings: A pair of ear ringings
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

52. First surgery: None
53. First piercing: 12Yr Old
54. First best friend: *Shhhhhhh*
55. First sport you joined: Sprint runner(I bet you won't believe me, right... I was a lot smaller then)
56. First vacation: USA
58. First pair of trainers: Reebok
Silly me

59. Eating: peanut butter krackers
60. Drinking: Oligo Cocoa
61. I'm about to: Zzzzzzzzz
62. Listening to: just a quiet moment, silence and serenity
63. Waiting on: frontierville to load

64. What kids?: Good manner and hardworking children
65. Get Married?: All set to go...
66. Career?: Not enough to build a family

67. Lips or eyes: Lips...
68. Hugs or kisses: should I be answering that....
69. Shorter or taller: Tall....
70. Older or Younger: It very well depends...
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous is also consider romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Depends...
73. Sensitive or loud: loud...
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationships...
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant...

76. Kissed a stranger: Nope...and never
77. Drank hard liquor: None
78. Lost glasses/contacts: my own eye....
79. Sex on first date: Eeeewww...
80. Broken someone's heart: Once...
82. Been arrested: None
83. Turned someone down:Yes...been there and done that
84. Cried when someone died: Yes...very dearly to me
85. Fallen for a friend?: That is always the case....
86. Yourself: Yes, Always...sometimes things doesn't fall onto place and I'll get a lil crazy
87. Miracles: Does happen, does it??
88. Love at first sight: something like feeling the rainbow mesmerizing upon the feeling in side
89. Heaven: Up above
90. Santa Claus: Hmmm...???
91. Kiss on the first date: **Shhhhhh
92. Angels: the person who lends a helping hand when we in need...!!!

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:one at a time
95. Did you sing today?: Everyday in the car
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: depending on the situations
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: Toddlers
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: I want to relive the childhood life
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: That is the most scariest thing in my world...
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Posting and Done!!!!

Wednesday, 27 April 2011

Sorrow reaps the sadness by Noryn(Monday, May 3, 2010 at 2:12am)

Some word means so little
But created such a big ripple
Doesn't make sense to the state of mind
But how I wish it was not mine.

I have yet to discover
Anything that people offer
My life is just a dream
But the dream has yet to redeem

I am scare to life itself
Im not Santa's lil' Elf
No magic or any miracle
Until it finds it's full cycle

So hear this, Dear One
My struggles has just begun
I surrender to gain clarity
In order for me to get serenity

So I pray to thee
That You could at least give to me
As You can see
I feel that I have been like this for eternity

I wish I could turn back the clock near my bed
And undo some of the things I've said...
Good bye to happiness and welcome to sorrow,
I think I'll be seeing a gloomy day tomorrow....

Unexpected paintings on the canvas of life ~ F.Noreen(Friday, August 27, 2010)

Life is like a clear canvas that will be painted by mankind. My life is so colourful that it occupies most of the canvas. But there will always be a shade if darkness there to give an "affect of life". God has created such beautiful balance in the world and yet man still tries to push the limit.

I do realise that most people loosed their perspective their life once in a while. Not to mention, so do live their life up to the edge which will endanger themselves. Some will go nut over such things. I cannot imagine what is running through their head when there are living their lifes dangerously.

"There will always be two-sides of a coin" the quote kept pounding in my head. I can never forget those words. "Don't be naive enough to ruin your life with monkeys on your head". It pulled me back to the ground each time I will find myself loosing my grasp. It does make what I an today though.

Loosing my bestfriend over something ridiculous to be fighting about, to hallucinating on my previous relationship has cause me my focus in certain aspect, and it does scares me. The feeling of hanging on to the so-called fake-hope really hurts and it still does. Seeing him everywhere eventhough he is not here. I find myself hitting rock-bottom in all these mess.

Why do I feel so sad? Why does it happen not as swiftly as I expected? There are times I feel like I want to drown in my own tears and never want to wake up from this bad dream. I tend to consume myself with all kinds of comforting food, hoping for the pain to go away. But who am I lying ?

I have never lost a friend before, especially times like these. I hope she forgives me for loving her too much. I have never loss to my own emotion-battle, and this will be the first which caught me off guard. I feel like my world, my relationship, and my friends are all on my carpet and without knowing that someone had just pulled it right underneath my feet.

No actual emotions, just shades of gray. My canvas is not as colourful as before and looked a bit hideous. No actual shape, no cheerful colours as the paint above. Yet my hands are still moving, interpreting what I feel all these time. My mind is still playing games with me. it is a matter of time that I will look myself as the canvas that is full of vibrant colours. Finally, hot streams of tears running down my cheeks, wished that this matter will soon be over.

How to Make Her Love You More - 5 Love Secrets to Make Her Yours Forever by Steffi Hall(Tuesday, December 28, 2010)

When you get plagued by that undeniable warm feeling inside of you, where you don't seem to know what to do and you just have to get near that someone making you feel so happy and jumpy --- then congratulations --- you just have fallen in love! Although we can all attest to the fact that being in love is good, we can't deny as well that the urge to attract that someone and make her fall in love to you too is too strong to deny. But before you start praying and rely everything to your lucky stars, it's important you realize that there are actually love secrets when it comes to how to make her love you and more --- here's how:
  • Don't be too available. Make her miss you --- being inseparable is good but there will come a point that being inseparable can be boring. Being there for her all the time can make her not think of you as more than a friend that's why important you show her that you have a life beyond her --- that will definitely peak her interest with you all the more.
  • Be sweet and romantic. Every girl fantasizes of a dream guy who's sweet and romantic. Being a bit chummy sometimes won't hurt and most women tend to want someone who can recite poetry or get all cozy with you while cuddling by the warm couch every now and then. So go ahead and unleash a little cheesiness in you.
  • Make her try new things. Women love getting intrigued of anything mysterious, a bit of drama to add spice in life and an adventurous guy to top it all off. Be open to new things and learn how to embrace change and that would definitely get her curiosity clock ticking.
  • Always fascinate her. Being nice is nice but being nice can also come off as a bit boring. And no girl wants to hangout with a boring guy --- it's self-explanatory. Hone your sense of humor and witty skills --- women would always go for the smarter guy more than anything else.
  • Be a little aggressive. Being consistent and insistent has it's perks --- you see, women tend to play a little hard-to-get every now and then that's why you need to have patience of steel if you're really that serious in pursuing her. When you do, you will be reaping your rewards soon and it will be all worth it, I tell you.
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Tuesday, 26 April 2011

The Do's and Don'ts of Climbing the Career Ladder ~ borrow from Little Black Dress Webpage.

1. DO make an effort to get to know people and socialise – network, network darling! Because it really is as much about who you know as what you know.
DON’T do this by spending your working day on Facebook – when we say ‘get to know people’ we mean your colleagues.

2. DO do your boss’s work for them if they ask you to – it is a sad fact (as Venus Gilroy, star of Memoirs are Made of This knows all too well) that on the way up your good nature and skills may be used and abused. But they will get you noticed and promoted…eventually.
DON’T, (repeat) DON’T, do what Venus does and prove to be better at your boss’s job than they are – this does not go down well. Although, as Venus will tell you, it’s worth noting that the above is considered a slightly less heinous crime than hitting it off with your boss’s extremely cute ex...

3. DO take on extra responsibilities – errands, paperwork, anything that’s going. It’s not glamorous but it will get you noticed.
DON’T take extra long lunch breaks – we all know that an hour isn’t enough time to hit the shops, get your nails done, catch up with your friends and get something to eat but them’s the rules, kid.

4. DO be the first to arrive at work and the last to leave – ‘sleep’ and ‘a social life’ are no longer part of your vocabulary. Dedication and diligence is what will get you to the top.
DON’T be the first to arrive at staff drinks and the last to leave – having drunk the bar dry, performed your truly ‘unique’ party trick and told anyone who’ll listen (and those who won’t) that your boss makes Anna Wintour look like Mother Teresa.

5. DO try to make a good impression – always dress to impress and remain in good humour, no matter what’s thrown at you (even if it’s a hole punch). DON’T get caught doing an impression of your boss – no matter how good your impersonation, this is sooo not a good look and in no way will they see ‘the funny side’.

Thinking out loud......

I never though that I would say this, but most people take things for granted on just about everything. We fail to see the quality of most good things that had happened or about to happen(whether to us or other individuals). But when it comes to grading other people's weaknesses, it will be on top of any priorities (you can bet on that). Being naive is one thing, being a total fool is another. Guess which one am I?

Did you know, each of the times that I apologize for something that I did was an absolute 'degradtion'(if you can call that a word ~ or if there is such word...). What I meant is : always putting other people ahead of me is the most non-selfish thing to do. Yet, I'm still judged by people around me in order to fit their needs and still in the wrong. 

I wonder with questions 'what if' kept popping into my head? "What if the situation was in reverse? What would I do to overcalm the issue?" or "What if I were to be angry at somebody, how do I make sure the person understand why I am so angry and we're still communicating / friends?" or "What if it was not out of desperation, I could at least open up and speak my mind out regarding certain things?".... What if... What if....

I'm finding myself stuck at a crossroads, in the middle of nowhere and need somebody to save me / guide me to a wider perspective. I thought by acting out, trying new things, exploring other options (which is: thinking-outside-the-box) could have gotten me in such a big mess. Emotions are a bit quirky, upset and regret sets-in, self-esteem gone down, what else can I say?

Anyway, in order for me to bounce back, I'm keeping everything to myself now. "Not wanting to trust anybody" would be a best resolution since most of the "people who doesn't bother to listen nor understand" would give a damn about it.  For once in my life, I admit that I am upset with what I did (which it had impacted to certain people), and I am making a stand on refusing to explain. Not worth of my time too.

I remembered someone used to say, "I trust no one, except for my mum and myself" and in order to rebound, "Whatever" would be the most annoying thing that person uses. I didn't understand at first and thought it was a bit childlike, however now I began to understand why such defense were laid through out my conversation with 'em. Good and bad things which had happened kind of rubs on you, wouldn't you agree?

Despite such delicate times and hardful moments to go through, I hereby consistantly reminding myself, everything happens for a reason and lessons to be learn. I'm not going to be lenient to myself anymore. Just maybe next time, you might not remember who I use to be. Go figure!!!!

Friday, 22 April 2011

All the youtubers salutos!!!!!!!

BoB - Airplanes ft Hayley Williams of Paramore (AHMIR cover ft Traphik) music video

Sam Tsui - Don't Want An Ending  

"For Good" from Wicked (ft. Nick Pitera)

Disney Tangled I See The Light (Cover) Nick Pitera

"I Will Follow You Into The Dark" - Death Cab For Cutie

Miley Cyrus Medley - Christina Grimmie (By Kurt Schneider)

I salute these people who have use their talent up to the utmost bizzare and briliant way... Props to you all !!!!

Thursday, 21 April 2011

"Coffee Theory about Self-Reflection!!!" created on "Saturday, May 16, 2009 at 5:59pm"

When you have friends, they sometimes can never tell the truth when crisis is upon one's self. Friends will be just like a nice warm hot chocolate that sips through during a cold steel night.

I always put my faith on my friends whenever I feel my wall crumbles down, but can never know for sure there will always a wolf wearing sheeps' fur....~That's how my dad would remind me...'It's a harsh world out there' he said. 'Not everything is Creme Brulee!'...And it is true though. The world you live in is not all merry and jolly. People will experience ther roller coaster of life.

There are also the blaiming game...Oh, there's a lot of types that will conclude to this sad ending conclusion. Hatred, loathe, revenge, envious and jealousness are some of the act which will reflect either one's self own turmoil or causing other people to get hurt. That's why it is good to talk about much so to express it.

Some people say that once a sworn enemy, can never be friends. Some say it's just not right. For me, an enemy can really be a teacher to one's self. And I call it a 'Coffee relationship'. For somebody who despise the taste for coffee can never appreciate the taste for it.

Coffee is bitter if it is taken as it is, but each different types of the bean will give a totally different taste, aroma and scent. When one's self discover his/her own favorite coffee, believe me when I say,you,the reader, will enjoy the taste of it. And you will also agree when I say 'Enemy's also can be a good friend and a good teacher'~~~same as the Coffee Theory!!!


Tuesday, 19 April 2011

Troubled self inflicted by own selfishness

“Mirror in the sky,
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise up above
Can I sail through the changing ocean tide?
Can I handle the season all my life? (Uh-huh, Uh-huh)”

This beautiful piece that was sung by the Dixie Chicks has shown how you reflecting how you feel about the person you care most. Whether it's your best friend or your family...If those people can relate definitely they can understand what was meant by this song.

Hmmm.... I just wonder what if all these are a part of God miraclous plan, we're just actors on His own big stage?(those words were quoted)....Some things just can't be explained, and some has it's own reason for things to happened. I'm sorry to all those people who was misunderstood for the past week... I know I've hurt so many people in order for me to have my own space.... Received so many good news and bad news over the week which makes it overwhelming for me to face it.

Just imagine, finding out that you have an impromptu trip to Melaka on Saturday, one of my best friends in town wanted to spend time, finding out one of your good friends just passed away, knowing another good friend just gave birth, not to mention, Boss organizes an open table at TGIF at The Curve, potential buyer buying the house, maid demands to go home and my own conflict to deal with.... and everything have to be attended on the same Saturday...then, to top it all of, predicted 3 of those friends got upset for deceiving them(or at least 2 of them) just to have my own space and got myself into trouble.... If only I can split myself into several piece and each attends the following situations, I won't be in this big mess.

*Sigh* Why have I became such a monster this passed week? Why am I always stuck in tghe middle of all these chaos? I thought with my life now, I should be laying low and not to expose myself until it became like this.... thanks babe(u know who u are) for pointing out the blindspot that I have been facing during this hard times...

As for that "certain" someone, thanks for "really" understanding me, for showing me sometimes in friendship is not all that great and not really being a good friend to you. However, I still love you though and BIG apologies for not able to explain to you clearly about the situation personally. It doesn't help when the issue comes from me being angry at you most of the time(until I don't even know what I'm angry anymore)...

And last but not least, I'm sorry to another best friend of mine for ignoring you all this time. I took advantages of the situation and forget that you too are always there all these years.... my fault completely.....I admit...

Now, my blog just sounded like some cheesy speech for democratic politicians, I must say...huhu (^_^)
Anyway, I've speak my piece out to you and hopefully everything will turn back right side up.... Peace!!! (^,-)V

Sunday, 17 April 2011

Post mortem on Trip to Melaka

Restless night, the night before last night was a headache, eventhough each one of us slept quite late during the early morning of yesterday, we all still manage to get out of bed and head out for the trip to Melaka.

It may be our last trip as a family since one of my "children" are setting off to a different department. I woke up at 9am, called the two love birds only to find that both are still sleeping. I woke them up too and start to get myself ready. When everything at home was settled, head out to the open highway. Caught myself in a massive jam, manage to get out of it by making a huge turnaround and went to the furtherest route to find the highway.

Meanwhile, called my besties, Imah, practically begged her on the phone to ask her to accompany me....Finally she said yes and threw my hands in the air and said "yey"...Thank goodness that she had agreed to follow me for this trip. I wanted to tell her so many things about this people  work with and also some of the personal stuff....She knows that when ever I had issues, I'll turn to her, despite wherever she is, I'll would just call her or see her....

Anyway... Arrived in McD of Sg Besi around 10 something... Finding another power couple(Ain & Arm) sitting down enjoying their breakfast... sat myself down beside them and enjoy company.... then one by one came.... Finally made a move at 12.20pm.... We headed out towards Seremban in the drizzling rain...back of my head kept on saying I have to go on first to cut the time.

So, some where near the Bandar Putra exit, I had to bypass the 3 cars and went on ahead....I reached 15minutes earlier than the rest of the team, went to pick up Imah and head out to the nearest McD to wait for one of the cars to arrive. As the car arrived, received a call from Muni saying the rest of them have finally reached their destination for me to pick them up.

Both cars headed off to Paroi to collect the team and set to Melaka... The journey was a blast to and fro... Eventhough it was a bit(a tiny bit) unorganize, but I salute them for making the most memorable trip so far.... We had lunch at one of the restaurant in Bukit Katil... I had myself  "Beef assam pedas" dish... Imah took pretty mush the same as me, Muni had "gulai lemak", Atuk was all vegietarian (I think); Ros, Ayu, Fitri and Paan all had "Assam pedas" dish as well, and not to forget, Ain and Arm were enjoying fried chicken and some other dishes(I couldn't quite remember)....

As for lunch which all have been taken care of, we headed to Taman Mini Malaysia....I can see how excited these kids are to enjoy each and every traditional homes that were set up there. As for me, I took a stroll with my besties to the houses that seems interesting as it lead me to see how the houses were constructed in the old days. Meantime, while these kids were running around taking pictures and all, I was consulting my personal issues to her for me to find my way out from my own mess. Thanks Imah(I'll try my best though after we had that talk).

After Taman Mini, all of us headed out to Bandar Melaka. Parked my car at Taming Sari as all of us waited for the rest to gather up and decide what to do. Finding out that the kids wanted to ride the Taming Sari, I set off the idea to ride that thing....not really afraid of heights, just simply set that one out.(Sorry kids, just given all u a white lie there)...My besties and I walk around to kill the time, finally took a trishaw ride all around the block and visit all the places with historical background there, the courthouse, the buildings, saw 'A famosa', took picture at the train.... and last but not least, took the boat ride at Riverside Cruise....

Finally reached back to the car closed to 9.40pm...everybody's hungry as we speak, we all drove all the way to Umbai...took 40 odd minutes to arrive to location. The food is great, we had (itadakimatsu), Barramundi savoury '3 rasa' dish, it is also cook as stimmed, tempura cuttlefish, and Sweet Sour crabs....
Hmmm Yum yum... enjoyed the feast, food are heavenly. We were all stuffed and it was already 12.30am... set off to the Ayeh Keroh toll, lead by Ayuni(thanks for getting us out) destination: HOME(for at least some of us)....

Took a stop at Ayer Keroh R&R, for Ain and Arm to switch drivers, then drove back on the freeway... I bypassed them all for me to head to Seremban (to drop off a few passengers), reached there at 2.02am to drop Imah, then to Paroi to drop Atuk roughly at 2.36am... I drove back to KL and reach Flora at 3.30am to drop off Muni and finally walk in  to my crib at 4am.

Wow! What a full long day....I had enjoyed my trip yesterday with the team together with my best friend, Finally I got to have that so called holiday with Imah(mind and tension releaser trip).... Thanks for being there when I needed you most. And thanks to all who have made the trip possible.....

Saturday, 16 April 2011

Macam-macam Masalah....

Aku tak sangka tadi macam2 dugaan yang aku lihat n tempuhi... Aku rasa cukup sudah aku lalui sepanjang 4 tahun bercinta dengan lelaki yang tiada pendirian. Melihat pasangan yang baru menjadi lalui satu lagi ujian yang mudah (menjadi rumit), ku bersyukur sekurang2nya that person is willing to listen to go home.... Aku dah risau kalau2 dia mengganas and hilang fokus....

Susah gak ada yang melayan perasaan dan bertepuk sebelah tangan tanpa menghiraukan perasaan orang lain. Sekiranya dia sayang dan redha, akan dia dengar setiap pertuturan dan hormat akan permintaan pasangan dia... dan lepaskan orang yang disayanginya....

"If you love a person hard enough, then let him/her go.... If he/she tends to come back, then that person is for you"..... aku ingat sehingga sekarang aper yang ex aku dulu pesan.... itu salah satu cara utk redha pada keadaan sebegitu... tapi.... buat cara memaksa ni, tiada faedah nye... Aku pun tak faham akan maksud idea gila dia tu....

Apa2 pun yang terjadi.... jangan takut untuk confront diri sendiri dahulu.... jangan rasa bersalah sekiranya hendak meminta bantuan dan nasihat sebelum membuat keputusan.... Itu lah gunanya kawan2 dan keluarga mengeliling diri orang yang facing masalah tu.... Biar apa pun keputusan yang dibuat, walaupun aku tak gemar dgn keputusan itu, aku akan berikan sokongan yang kau perlukan supaya tabah melalui time2 kesukaran itu.... Biarlah keputusan tu termaktub pada apa yang kau rasa "it's the right thing to do" and kau happy dgn keputusan yang kau ambil.....bukan sebaliknya.....

Thursday, 14 April 2011

3.19pm ~ Fail to realise...

I wish i could just turn back time and enjoy each moment onwards with family and love ones. I never knew how shocking and surprising life can be when you loose somebody close to you, without any heads up or warning.

Most of the time, I had gone through pains and upsetting moments, and i fail to admit that I play the most important part in my life as a person... I always put other people ahead of me instead of being selfish of what I actually want. For instance, I would rather give up of the people I care /  love / adore to let them persue their own happiness instead of fight my stand to grab the chance to make it my own(y'all know what I'm saying?!)....

All my best and closest friends know that I am like that... Sacrifice a lot to make other people happy, but not for myself.... I feed on other people's happiness just to put up a smile on my face, but knows behind that smile, there is a girl who's all teared up, sad and lonely.

But hey, it is for other people's happiness right.... I'm feeling de-javu all over again... And it is the right thing to do on my count......

Test of Fate

Hmmm... today I just found out that one of my bestfriend's husband just passed on in his sleep. According to his pal, he was not able to breathe and died in his sleep. I remembered when I was in college, Manja(the best friend) had broke the news that she was getting married and all of us were shocked. We didn't come to realize that it was that soon... Met the guy, he was a jovial bloke that crack a joke and people would start to roll around laughing... I remembered that I had spend a night at her family home and every had their own shares of secrets for a pillow talk.. those were the he is gone. May he'll be place amongst the people of Heaven(by God's will) ~ Al -Fatihah....

Sharing thoughts and mind.....

I find that most people around me fail to realize that everybody needs somebody in their life and still there are some being as cold hearted in informing that you don't deserve this or that....

Who are they exactly to judge other people whereby those people who have said those words are actually in an insecure mode.

I had once gone through a rough time which lead to a fail relationship. Those were the hard times when somebody you love go against you and put every single blame on you.

Who are we kidding when it comes to this situation. Since then, the feeling regret of trusting a person and having a lot of spaculation creates amosity for me....

Boy, it's a cold world out there when you find yourself standing alone there and lonely...I wish could have done something that could at least ease my mind...