Sam, Kurt and Tom Hanks....Yale 2011

OMG...How I love Sam Tsui's voice and Kurt Hugo Schneider talent... this is a guys whom actually enjoy their music and the talents amongst friends... Somehow, no matter what songs that they sung, his voice manage to calm me down and make my worries disappear...... How about this speech given by Tom Hanks at their Graduation Day in Yale a few weeks back.....

This is why such speech are so inspiring....I wish I could write as good as that

Feeling Down and Pressure Up

People around me always seems so happy in so many ways.... Walking around with their family, friends, lover, husband, wife, children.... With smiles on their faces left me in doubt... Questions that kept on popping into my mind is: What are they thinking about? Sometimes, face-expression and body language can be so deceiving, it makes you head spin.

Today, I went out to have dinner with a bunch of friends... At first everything was perfectly fine until I've dropped one of them home, only then I realize how misarable I have been for the past days... 4days have past, still confuse with situations which has its turning point within a split of a second... People in love, a person grow out of love, girls getting engage after raya, a bunch getting married, a person is hurt, another couple ending their marriage and another ending their engagement...a person is in love with another bunch of people's relationship and another just standing on the sidelines, watching over a person that he/she love  from afar.......

Really dreadful week.... What did I get myself into.... Talking about being very disturb and craving on the sorrowness of others putting me is terrible state of patheticness...I've always said that I will always become this hideous person where I became a safety net for every person that I find myself involved with.....and each everytime I came to like someone.... he either is in or gonna be in a relationship with another girl... and always been the one that put on a smiley face and say to myself, "it's gonna be ok, I'm gonna be ok...." Yeah right....

I've always wanted to fight back and say, " Why her and not me....?" It became a tremendous pressure that it really puts a toll on my now as I looked back in time for every action that I did.... I can defy, saying I've always retreat and not pushing it(not fighting  for it).....I am tired as I mentioned before in the previous blog).....Always feel envious of other people's relationship, and stupid enough to say that what happens not doesn't matter.....

Well it DOES MATTER!!!! Hell yeah it matters to me.... I thought I had found my (guy) soulmate.... but he doesn't belong to me.... "let fate decide"? Huh.... who are we kidding.... If I don't work on it, you think God will just drop you a guy that has something on the forehead says, "I'm your soulmate"?... Not a chance....

I hope that tonight I can sleep on this matter and forget by the time tomorrow comes.....

Rasa sakit bila orang melamar ???

Semalam aku gi jumpa member aku ni hah... dok lepak dgn dia... Borak pasal macam2... salah satunye cite pasal hal jodoh....Mak aih... tertekan nye aku.... Just imagine lah kan....aku ni tak pernah nak berfikiran negative pasal hal jodoh, tapi naper tah, dgn dia aku emo... bukan nye aper... aku happy utk semua kengkawan yang dapat jodoh tu... kengkawan yang dah nak kahwin tu mengingatkan aku tentang umur aku... tu lah yang paling sedih tu....

Ko nak tau tak aper rasanye sakit bila orang melamar nak kahwin? Macam ramai kengkawan aku tau cerita ni, aku spend 4 tahun utk pertahankan relationship aku dgn pasangan aku dulu, tapi tak.... kene tipu hidup2... dia tinggalkan aku for another gurl... I buried myself in work for the next 9 months.  And that guy came back.

Aku bagi peluang pada dia balik pada aku, tapi hati ni kata aku tak boleh nak percaya pada dia lagi dah.... Aku mintak dia buktikan dia boleh win aku balik...so dia lamar aku lagi sekali... Pastu dapat tau dia kene berkursus for 3 months. Aku musykil and sangsi gak lah... aku ada rasa yang dia akan curang balik....

So, 3 months had passed.... Dia bagitau aku dia tak nak balik and dia nak sambung belajar.... katanye dia tak lulus so dia kene sambung balik... aku dah rasa suspicious dah masa tu... then dia start hilang2... 2 minggu sekali, 1 bulan sekali, bila2 aku call jer, dia tak nak angkat... dia kata dia sibuk, suke sangat call aku masa aku dah tido... masa tu memang dah tak boleh blah dah.

So, I took the initiative to break off dgn dia... masa yang sama, aku memang jadi orang yang serious dan pemarah... Masa tu memang  pada sesiapa yang datang kacau aku, kene maki giler2 lar.... Then, something happened lar(I think that I'll reserve that story for another blog or I'll get myself into trouble).....

Yang best about the break up tu, aku kene tuduh ada jantan lain... aku cakap benda yang benar pun EX aku tak percaya... then aku terfikir macam mana aku boleh terima lelaki yang tuduh aku yang bukan2. Yang best tu dia siap mintak nama jantan tu, tanya keje kat mana(semua detail tu ler)... and I kept everything shut to myself. So, there goes another hurtful relationship.

2 month berlalu, aku browse FB aku via BB, bila aku call phone, kekadang kalo no hp kite link pada FB orang lain, nampak orang tu nye profile picture kat dalam hp kite... My 2nd no appear profile pic ex aku... so aku pun masuk lah FB dia (konon nye nak padam no aku tu)... hmmm... tah naper tah aku bagi member aku check profile dia, and so dia browse lah ke dalam inbox mamat tu....And guess what?

Talking about ending up this relationship is painful, lagi lah sakit bila aku dapat tau EX aku menduakan aku...opss sorry, bukan menduakan, men’tiga’kan aku... Dia ada 2 org GF after dia break dgn aku... n still ada hati nak tuduh aku curang.... sebak dowh aku, terus meleleh air mataku, terdiam n terduduk aku jap....

A few days later, aku jalan kan tugas giler, aku mengantoikan EX aku tu kat kedua2 GF dia... Tujuan aku? sakit hati? marah? gila? Semuanya ada serba sedikit, tapi yang paling utama sekali, dia cabar aku utk exposekan diri dia…sapa soh wat fitnah dgn aku. Dia ingat aku takut dgn kehilangan dia... aku memang tak boleh tolerate lelaki yang kuat menipu ni.... Napalah ko nak cari jodoh, sanggup tikam menikam, curang, kejam, fitnah...? I had enough of him and he doesn't appreciate women properly...

That is why I did such so... As I gone back to my house, I remembered how I have promised to myself that I won't do that again after that insident. I kept my promise... and you know what... rasa berdosanya aku dgn tindakan aku meng’expose’kan dia yang curang tu.. However it is a lesson should be learned and shared, not to mention sacrificing my love in order to do the right thing. Sapa kata aku tak sayang... aku sayangkan dia(tipu lah kata sampai sekarang aku tak sayang dia), tapi kalo macam ni tak reti nak setia pada yang satu jer... not worth of my time and love....

Hukum karma:: padan muka aku, aku terima balasan dgn redha je lah...Aku give up... aku give up dengan mencari jodoh... everytime aku bertemu dengan sesiapa saje yang aku suke /minat... ends up orang tu jadi milik orang lain... aku give up....

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love

Huaarrrghhh *yawn*....

OMG.... mengantuk giler ni.... dah tak leh nak blah dah hah... baru pukul 10.44am on this Monday morning ni.... Macam aku wall kan FB aku semalam, Padan muka aku nak sangat melepaskan rindu pada kopi, hamik.... rasakan... aku tak jangka 2 shots of expresso in the caramel machiatto boleh buat aku tak tido 24 hours.... ke memang dah tak lali pada "cafè" or should I say caffeine?

Huaarrrghhh *yawn*.... payah ni nak buat keje ni.... Aduhai banyak kot keje aku nak siapkan harini... tapi tak boleh nak focus deh....memacam keadaan, tapi yang ni is no exceptional.... mau nye sakit kepala nak bersengkang mata ni... aku dok pikir kul 4pg tadi boleh lah aku tido sat dalam 1jam- 1 1/2jam.... kul 4.30pg, Naza dah datang kejut bersahur... per lagi... aku pun gi makan sahur... makan cepat2 pastu cuba tido balik....masuk kul 5pg and bangun balik kul 6.30pg....

Mak aih... mmg tak cukup lah time tido aku wei....paksa gak lah badan ni gi mandi, solat, and siap2 gi keje.... sampai jer ofis, kene aircond... mmg rasa macam nak cari bantal and tarik selimut jer ni.... Tolong wey... minda aku penat ni....waaakkkk.....

Love~? Are you sure about the terms?

Love comes as it is, neutral, pure and true, and becomes solace to people who owns it. It takes two people actually have the same feeling, or should I say simultaneously occur in two individuals emotion.

I wonder what is going on this month….. As I posted up in my Facebook profile, “Now it’s like a season of break-ups, separation and divorce amongst people around me. What’s going on & WTF, people…? Haven’t you got any balls to be a little bolder & wiser in your own relationship? Or you just think all these are just games to you? Is this what you call being an adult? Not patient enough to keep everything together? (24^th July 2011)”, I’m wondering what is going on here? I understand that most of you have problems and all, but it doesn’t hurt to at least spend 5 minutes to talk and try work things out… If you let your emotions run wild, then you are no better than the person who became the reason you two broke up.

If you want to play the victim, go ahead, but at the end of the day, you know that you’ve done the most regretful thing and feeling remorseful of how the relationship ends. Try to be more grateful of what you have since you have one to keep. I know as you aged, the market goes down (I’m talking about the women)… and it goes up for the men because most eligible bachelors are to die for. They have their charms and wisdom and sweet talks, those single ladies will be mesmerized and fall to their laps instantly.

I’ve gone through a few relationships, myself, and I can say it is not as easy as it seems… It is easy to fall in love, it is easy to get into a relationship, but it is hard to keep one and sustaining it for the rest of your life. It is much harder to call it all off as it takes up a lot in you; mind, spirit and soul. There are a lot of lesson about yourself to be learned as your go through in the relationship you are in. It can either be a mirror to you or it can set differences to keep the both of you being together.

Who doesn’t want a perfect relationship? It’s ok to have arguments, silence and little foul-play. Tolerance is highly recommendable and patience is something to keep the relationship. Argument is for acknowledging each other on things needed to be improved and communication is merely a bridge on for these two individuals on have the utmost miracle thing that connects them.

Then people, whomever who has the idea of letting go a relationship, please sit down and give a deep thought…. If nothing matters, then think deeper… If you know that your relationship would not work out by the end of the day, don’t ever get into a relationship in the first place. Human hearts ~ feeling are easy to be played with, tampered and broken over and over again. Emotions are way too fragile to carry the burden of sorrows. Don’t ever give any foolish reasons for all hell to break loose.

I’m not encouraging for all of you to reconsider on all possibilities to break up with your partner, but in enduring the possibilities to end it up horribly. But if you do have to end it up, don’t ever use a pretty lame excuse of, “I can never learn to love anymore since I let him/her go; or he/she left me”, or “My parents have arranged me to be wed to… ”, or “I love you both, but I love him/her more than I love you”… Those are not a good reason to get off a relationship.

Be yourself and tell the person you are with the actual truth. “I maybe falling out of love with you, we do need time to re-evaluate our stands” are most common ice-breaker on telling the truth about how you feel. Think about it, aight……

Song from a Secret Garden

Seandainya....:)

by Syira Myra on Tuesday, April 12, 2011 at 7:47pm

Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila seorang perempuan jatuh cinta, lelaki itu tidak semestinya punya segalanya tetapi lelaki itu adalah segalanya di hatinya.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila seorang perempuan itu mengalirkan air mata, itu bukan bermakna dia lemah, tetapi dia sedang mencari kekuatan untuk terus tabah menyintai lelaki itu.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila seorang perempuan marah, memang dia tidak mampu mengawal perasaannya tapi percayalah, itulah maknanya dia sangat mengambil berat dan menyayangi lelaki itu. Lihat saja pasangan yang baru bercinta, mereka jarang bergaduh. Tetapi percayalah semakin bertambah sayang mereka pada seseorang, semakin pula banyak pertelingkahan yang berlaku.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan bercakap banyak, dia tidak pernah bermaksud untuk membuat anda rimas, tapi dia mahu lelaki mengenalinya dengan lebih dekat.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan berkata dia mahu anda berubah, itu bukan bermakna dia tidak mahu menerima anda seadanya, tetapi dia mahu menjadikan anda lebih baik, bukan untuk dirinya, tetapi untuk masa depan anda.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan cemburu dan tidak percayakan anda, bukan bermakna dia tidak sayang.. tetapi dia terlalu sayangkan anda dan masih mengangap anda anak kecil yang masih memerlukan sepenuh perhatian. Kadang2 dia terlalu risau sekiranya terlalu percaya, anda akan mengkhianati kepercayaan yang diberi. Naluri keibuannya sangat kuat. Dia hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anda.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan merajuk, jangan kata dia mengada-ngada. Dia bukannya mahu dipujuk dengan wang ringgit atau hadiah sedozen, tetapi cukup dengan perhatian yang boleh buat perempuan rasa dihargai.

Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie - Just A Dream


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan jarang mengatakan ‘i love u’, itu tidak bermaksud dia tidak menyintai tetapi dia mahu lelaki itu merasai sendiri cintanya, bukan hanya hadir dari kata-kata tetapi juga melalui bahasa tubuhnya.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan kata dia rindu sama kamu, dia benar-benar maksudkannya. Apabila berjauhan, bayanganmu akan sentiasa bermain di mata.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan selalu bertanya adakah kamu rindu dan sayang sama dia, waktu itu dia benar-benar merindui dan menyayangi kamu.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan kata lelaki lain itu lebih baik dari kamu, jangan percaya kata-katanya kerana dia hanya mahu menguji kamu. Dia mahu melihat sejauh mana kamu sanggup menjadi yang terbaik di matanya. Walaupun sebenarnya memang kamulah yang terbaik di hatinya. Selagi dia dengan kamu, percayalah, walaupun perempuan menganggap masih ramai lagi yang lebih baik di matanya tetapi di hatinya, kamu tetap yang terbaik.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan menjadi degil, dia bukan bermaksud untuk menjadi degil tapi dia mahu melihat sejauh mana lelaki itu mampu bersabar dengan kerenahnya. Percayalah, hati perempuan itu sangat lembut. Andai kena caranya, jangan terkejut kalau akhirnya dia menukar fikirannya dalam masa sesaat.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Apabila perempuan berkata, “tolong tinggalkan saya!”, dia tidak bermaksud menyuruh anda pergi selamanya. Dia hanya mahu menenangkan fikirannya sebentar saja. Apabila dia kembali tenang, percayalah dia akan mencari anda semula. Itu tandanya dia benar-benar menyintai anda. Perempuan sukar untuk mengawal perasaan. Dia terlalu emosional. Tapi dialah yang paling menyayangi anda dan sangat sensitif dengan perubahan pada diri anda.


Andainya lelaki tahu.. Sememangnya Allah menciptakan lelaki dan perempuan itu dengan perbezaan yang tersendiri. Tetapi sekiranya mereka saling memahami, mereka akan saling melengkapi dan menyempurnakan . Perempuan itu diciptakan oleh Allah indah sekali. Di sebalik air matanya, tersimpan seribu satu kekuatan yang bakal menjadikan seorang lelaki itu merasa selamat bersamanya. Biarpun zahirnya perempuan itu tampak lemah tapi dia punya kekuatan tersendiri yang bisa menggoncang dunia dan mungkin bisa pula membuat lelaki menjadi lemah kerananya. Jadi hargailah kehadiran seorang perempuan dalam hidup anda kerana dia didatangkan bukan dengan kelemahan sahaja tetapi dia juga ada kekuatan untuk menyongkong anda dan membuatkan hidup anda lebih sempurna. Dialah yang bakal menjadi perempuan bekerjaya, isteri juga ibu yang terbaik untuk anak2 anda.

5 cues that separate the dating duds from your dream dude

Finding it hard to get past your first date? Discover key elements to help you influence the chemistry that exists during this pivotal moment.

So here’s the scenario:
You’re out on a date with this guy; he’s cute, funny, charming and quite the conversationalist. At this point, you’ve also deemed him Mr. Almost Perfect because he has somehow met the requirements of your mental checklist for the ideal guy. It just can’t get better than this; the dinner setting is oh-so romantic, the music is subtle and inviting, the lighting is just right…heck, even crappy food taste great when you’re with him. You’re just too gooey-eyed to notice that for the past hour or so, your dream guy has been going on and on about how his ex left him. The fact that he even mentioned about his ex during YOUR date is a testament to this: he’s just not that into you.

1. Your date is constantly looking at his cell phone or answering text messages every few minutes or so.
Unless he is expecting a call from his parole officer, psychiatrist or mother reminding him about his curfew or to take his prescribed meds, his main focus should be on YOU and YOUR conversation. Text messages from his gaming buddies and especially his exes can certainly wait.

2. When asked questions, he gets more and more disinterested or agitated.
Have you noticed that every time you direct a question at him, his response never exceeds one or two words, or that he often responds to you with arms folded firmly across his chest, jaws clenched, nostrils flaring, eyes rolling or a sigh escaping? Well, there’s a huge chance he just wants you to shut up! Guys can be generally insensitive, but this kind of behaviour goes overboard.

3. Your date is constantly getting up from his seat.
Unless he has A.D.D., irritable bowel syndrome or red ants in his pants, there shouldn’t be so many excuses for him to get up from his seat. Visiting the men’s room is certainly excusable, but taking his cell phone in every time he visits and spending a good amount of time in there as opposed to spending that time with you is questionable. And unless your date has double-parked his car, there shouldn’t be a reason for him to get up ‘abruptly’ more than twice to spend time at the parking lot. In that case, he should have just brought you to a fast food drive-thru for dinner!

4. His eyes keep wondering about and they never settle on you. You’re probably wondering whether your date has loose eye muscles or a looser behaviour because his eyes are constantly darting about the room; staring at a group of beauties who have just walked in, or at the next table and their fabulous food. Either way, they seem to be more interesting to him than you. So don’t waste your time with this one… move on to a yummier and more deserving male-dish. NEXT!

5. He compliments you… and then compares you with his ex. Every girl loves a compliment… but not when that compliment is served with a comparison to an ex! You should be his MAIN DISH and current squeeze. You shouldn’t be reduced to a side-dish and have to compete with yesterday’s news. There’s a good reason why she is his ex. And for whatever those reasons may be, you certainly don’t want to be compared with those negative traits. It’s just degrading!

So, read between the lines, honey…and make a beeline for the nearest exit! Dating a dud is not worth your time. You’re much better than that!